Is it possible to be truly happy? Are you happy? Are you happy with all the aspects of your life, with all the decisions you've made, with the person that you are?
I find myself wondering more and more lately if I am truly happy. If I have all the things in life that I would like to have for myself. But then at the same time I realize that I am missing a lot of things that I wish that I had. The problem is I don't know how to fix it.
The problem is not knowing. Not knowing how to fix it because it is not a problem on my end, at least I don't think that it is, because I've changed so many things about myself to recapture that happiness but still can't put my finger on what to do.
I've gone back on my meds (well sort of, I've been off them 2 days now because I'm out), I've gone back to work, which is a decision that I am happy with. My next step is to go back to school. But there's still. Something. Missing.
I know that I long for affection and intimacy again but I don't know how to acquire these things again. I long for great friendships, for someone to hang out with that actually likes me for me not for what I can do for them. But how can I obtain these things. That is what I do not know.
I'm so tired of struggling and fighting for glimpses of happiness. How can I get these things back?
How can I get out of this funk?
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